Rant.

Ugh.

I'm finally over Phoenixfeather.
But now I have a crush on Silver. My female best friend who hates me.

Not to mention, I can't talk to anyone at school about this. If I came out to my friends, well...

Toki would wig out. She's a Conservative Republican. Against gay marriage. Her words: "I think it's a choice and that gay marriage is stupid."
I wanted to say, "was it your choice to be attracted to Allen (her boyfriend)? It's not a choice, is it? But even if it is, so is religion. So is getting a, say, Jewish marriage also stupid?"
She;d also accidentally say something.

Jaden would either tell everyone or a few people who would tell everyone. If she kept it a secret, then if I ever get on her bad side, she WOULD make sure everyone knew. And I live in the state where John McCain is from, where some people think that Obama is the Anti-Christ. I'd be driven out of town with torches and pitchforks if everyone knew I'm bisexual.

AND NO IT IS NOT A PHASE! I AM NOT DOING THIS TO FIT IN! GOD PEOPLE.

I just want someone outside of the LGBTQ youth group I go to to talk to, ya know?

~CloudyHavoqk/SukiSelfDestruct

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END TRANSMISSION

Woah
Pull the top down, use your knees to drive
I'll make it worth the while, just let me taste the sky
You pressed your mouth on mine and fed me a star
And said, "we never can truly know who we are..."
Know who we are...

With the lights out and the night inside
The broken radio was playing suicide
I felt myself falling I confess to you
I saw a body
You'd said you've seen a few

This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun
The gun...

Keep the top down, use your knees to drive
I'll hide these words, they're only yours to find
You pressed your mouth on mine and said they'll call us stars
And said, "we never can truly know who we are..."

This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun

Everything was burning birght
Everyone was frightened
You said, "stay strong."
Everyone know we'd left what we'd invited
Still remains when we're gone...

This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun
Oh
This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun
The gun...
I'll bring the gun...
Oh...

(NOT OFFICIAL!)

NINtastic Journey.

In honor of the last Wave Goodbye show, I put this together:

It was late June 2009.
Must’ve been around the 18th or 19th, right after I came back from Washington, DC. I was sitting on my bed, legs crossed, listening to my iPod.
It was a month or so too late, but I scrolled through the artists. L…M…N…N! I quickly rolled down until the artist “Nine Inch Nails” was selected.
I opened the album Further Down the Spiral, having been recommended The Downward Spiral but thinking that it would be good enough. I put it on shuffle.
The first song that came on was “The Art of Self Destruction, Pt. 1” a remix of the song “Mr. Self Destruct.”
Quiet beats.
“I control you…I control you…”
Honestly, the song scared me at first. On the chatroom that I was logged into, I typed something along the lines of: “god, does this song scare me. All it basically is is Trent whispering “I control you”! but I love it.”
Soon afterwards, I logged on to the Nine Inch Nails MySpace page. I listened to The Downward Spiral.
“Mr. Self Destruct” was immediately my favorite NIN song.
A bit later, I burned With Teeth to a disc and put it in my CD player. I loved “All the Love in the World,” “The Collector,” “Getting Smaller,” and “Right Where It Belongs.”
Then came The Slip. I got my free download. I loved it.
Skip ahead to the last day of summer -- August 9th, 2009 -- and I was sitting on my bed, drinking a smoothie and finally listening to The Fragile. I loved it instantly, too.
Then I listened to the Broken EP. Didn’t regret it one bit.
My friend, Kera, emailed me her rip of Pretty Hate Machine which I absolutely adored.

And since then, I haven’t looked back.

HI-N1n/NINfluenza/Trent is Ill

...which sucks

IT IS SO TOTALLY SWINE FLU SIMPLY BECAUSE OF ALL THE PIGS IN TDS. THEY INFECTED HIM WHEN HE PLAYED ALL OF TDS A DAY OR TWO AGO.
HERESY -- "he made a virus that would kill off all the swine"

AND I KNOW THE ECHOPLEX SETLIST:
1. Echoplex
2 - 15. The Downward Spiral
16 - 38. The Fragile
39. Head Like a Hole
40. The Perfect Drug

You Get Me Closer To God!

first, go look at my sites:
CloserToGod.webs.com and NINslash.webs.com <3
it's on the tin. (well, CTG is a Trentvey/other NIN and AFI crossover slashery...and NINSlash is obviously Nine Inch Nails slash <3)

OH AND I FOUND THIS EFFEN PICTURE

I am BORING

um.
follow me on Twitter? @With_Teeth27
yeah.
I put up some stuff I'm writing on a few sites. if anyone's interested, comment and, um, I'll ya.
sweet.

CLOUDYhavoqk

medicate

Come day
You'll say you cannot stay
Once more, I'll feel the same.
It happens everytime.
So I've come to find
Everyone goes away
I'm destined to remain
You were never mine
So you were perfect
(this is) our medicine
(this is) our time to medicate

You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in this and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate
You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in us and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate

...
Could I just find a way
I'd find you everyday.
And we could alter time.
And I've come to find
Everyone's gone away
So this may be the time
For the perfect crime
Oh yes it's perfect
(this is) our medicine
(this is) our time to medicate

You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in this and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate
You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in us and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate