==WARNING==

This is the blog of a delusional spaz who is probably going to be talking about music she likes & other such odd things. Including her insanity.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Rant.

Ugh.

I'm finally over Phoenixfeather.
But now I have a crush on Silver. My female best friend who hates me.

Not to mention, I can't talk to anyone at school about this. If I came out to my friends, well...

Toki would wig out. She's a Conservative Republican. Against gay marriage. Her words: "I think it's a choice and that gay marriage is stupid."
I wanted to say, "was it your choice to be attracted to Allen (her boyfriend)? It's not a choice, is it? But even if it is, so is religion. So is getting a, say, Jewish marriage also stupid?"
She;d also accidentally say something.

Jaden would either tell everyone or a few people who would tell everyone. If she kept it a secret, then if I ever get on her bad side, she WOULD make sure everyone knew. And I live in the state where John McCain is from, where some people think that Obama is the Anti-Christ. I'd be driven out of town with torches and pitchforks if everyone knew I'm bisexual.

AND NO IT IS NOT A PHASE! I AM NOT DOING THIS TO FIT IN! GOD PEOPLE.

I just want someone outside of the LGBTQ youth group I go to to talk to, ya know?

~CloudyHavoqk/SukiSelfDestruct

Friday, September 18, 2009

End Tansmission lyrics

END TRANSMISSION

Woah
Pull the top down, use your knees to drive
I'll make it worth the while, just let me taste the sky
You pressed your mouth on mine and fed me a star
And said, "we never can truly know who we are..."
Know who we are...

With the lights out and the night inside
The broken radio was playing suicide
I felt myself falling I confess to you
I saw a body
You'd said you've seen a few

This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun
The gun...

Keep the top down, use your knees to drive
I'll hide these words, they're only yours to find
You pressed your mouth on mine and said they'll call us stars
And said, "we never can truly know who we are..."

This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun

Everything was burning birght
Everyone was frightened
You said, "stay strong."
Everyone know we'd left what we'd invited
Still remains when we're gone...

This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun
Oh
This night has only just begun
If there's discretion that you've not abandoned
Now's the time
We'll burn across the morning sun
Don't grab your bat, don't bring the gun
The gun...
I'll bring the gun...
Oh...

(NOT OFFICIAL!)

Thursday, September 10, 2009

NINtastic Journey.

In honor of the last Wave Goodbye show, I put this together:

It was late June 2009.
Must’ve been around the 18th or 19th, right after I came back from Washington, DC. I was sitting on my bed, legs crossed, listening to my iPod.
It was a month or so too late, but I scrolled through the artists. L…M…N…N! I quickly rolled down until the artist “Nine Inch Nails” was selected.
I opened the album Further Down the Spiral, having been recommended The Downward Spiral but thinking that it would be good enough. I put it on shuffle.
The first song that came on was “The Art of Self Destruction, Pt. 1” a remix of the song “Mr. Self Destruct.”
Quiet beats.
“I control you…I control you…”
Honestly, the song scared me at first. On the chatroom that I was logged into, I typed something along the lines of: “god, does this song scare me. All it basically is is Trent whispering “I control you”! but I love it.”
Soon afterwards, I logged on to the Nine Inch Nails MySpace page. I listened to The Downward Spiral.
“Mr. Self Destruct” was immediately my favorite NIN song.
A bit later, I burned With Teeth to a disc and put it in my CD player. I loved “All the Love in the World,” “The Collector,” “Getting Smaller,” and “Right Where It Belongs.”
Then came The Slip. I got my free download. I loved it.
Skip ahead to the last day of summer -- August 9th, 2009 -- and I was sitting on my bed, drinking a smoothie and finally listening to The Fragile. I loved it instantly, too.
Then I listened to the Broken EP. Didn’t regret it one bit.
My friend, Kera, emailed me her rip of Pretty Hate Machine which I absolutely adored.

And since then, I haven’t looked back.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

HI-N1n/NINfluenza/Trent is Ill

...which sucks

IT IS SO TOTALLY SWINE FLU SIMPLY BECAUSE OF ALL THE PIGS IN TDS. THEY INFECTED HIM WHEN HE PLAYED ALL OF TDS A DAY OR TWO AGO.
HERESY -- "he made a virus that would kill off all the swine"

AND I KNOW THE ECHOPLEX SETLIST:
1. Echoplex
2 - 15. The Downward Spiral
16 - 38. The Fragile
39. Head Like a Hole
40. The Perfect Drug

Sunday, August 23, 2009

You Get Me Closer To God!

first, go look at my sites:
CloserToGod.webs.com and NINslash.webs.com <3
it's on the tin. (well, CTG is a Trentvey/other NIN and AFI crossover slashery...and NINSlash is obviously Nine Inch Nails slash <3)

OH AND I FOUND THIS EFFEN PICTURE

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I am BORING

um.
follow me on Twitter? @With_Teeth27
yeah.
I put up some stuff I'm writing on a few sites. if anyone's interested, comment and, um, I'll ya.
sweet.

CLOUDYhavoqk

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

medicate

Come day
You'll say you cannot stay
Once more, I'll feel the same.
It happens everytime.
So I've come to find
Everyone goes away
I'm destined to remain
You were never mine
So you were perfect
(this is) our medicine
(this is) our time to medicate

You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in this and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate
You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in us and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate

...
Could I just find a way
I'd find you everyday.
And we could alter time.
And I've come to find
Everyone's gone away
So this may be the time
For the perfect crime
Oh yes it's perfect
(this is) our medicine
(this is) our time to medicate

You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in this and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate
You and me, now as we
Lose ourselves in us and ignore
That you don't even know my name
Medicate

Sunday, August 9, 2009

bow down before the one you serve

AFI lyrics often remind me of Nine Inch Nails lyrics.

"hurt myself today" is a lyric in The Last Kiss (AFI) and Hurt (NIN)
"Hurt myself today -- it's all for you." -- The Last Kiss
"I hurt myself today to see if I still feel..." -- Hurt

*

The AFI title "I Am Trying Very Hard To Be Here" reminds me of "I'm Looking Forward To Joining You, Finally"

*

AND MISS MURDER. HOLY HELL.

"beauty will last when spiraled down" is totally a Downward Spiral reference.
I feel that the whole song is sorta a continuation of TDS...

"Hey, Miss Murder can I?
Hey, Miss Murder can I?
Make beuaty stay if I
Take my life?"
This is from the perspective of the character who narrates The Downward Spiral. 'Miss Murder' is another name for his girlfriend (the subject of Piggy, Closer, ad probably Eraser) who he had used for control through sex, who left him. He's asking her if he can make up for his sins if he takes his life, for at the point of the song "The Downward Spiral" (penultimate track) he realized how badly he's screwed up and commits suicide in that song.

"With just a look
They shook
And heavens bowed before him
Simply a look
Can break
Your heart..."
This is a reference to the tyrannical "God" figure the character overthrows then becomes (Heresy, Ruiner, Big Man With A Gun, etc...).

"The stars that pierce the sky
He left them all behind
We're left to wonder why
He left us all behind."
Pretty obvious, about his suicide.

"Dreams of his crash
Won't pass
Oh, how they all adored him
Beauty will last
When spiraled
Down."
Basically very obvious. People loved him, he couldn't see it, he threw it all away.

"The stars that mystified
He left them all behind
And how his children cried
He left us all behind."
Same thing as the first part of this verse and the last part of the first verse.

"What's the hook, the twist
Within this verbose mystery?"
"verbose mystery" could be a reference to the album itself.

"I would gladly bet my life upon it
That the ghost you love
Your ray of light will fizzle out
Without hope..."
This is about the relationship he had with his girlfriend, Miss Murder or the piggy. Also may be a reference to Ghosts I-IV

"We're the empty set
Just floating through
Wrapped in skin
Ever searching for what we were promised
Reaching for that golden ring
We'd never let go
Who would ever let us put their filthy hands upon it?"
This is from the character's point of view once more. "We're" is possibly talking about the song Reptile, "wrapped in skin" means they have no souls. The "golden ring" is power, something he was aiming for in the beginning, power, control, self-identity. Their hands are filthy from what they have become.

We return to the chorus, his pleas to Miss Murder or the piggy for an answer. Yet, in the end, he still commits suicide. His downward spiral ends.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

AFI Blastin'

Post your email address in the comments if you want me to forward you the AFI newsletter.
My email's sukita.taramei@yahoo.com and I'll be sending it from there.
Thanks!


Just sent it out to those who gave me their addresses!

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Heresy Pt II

War...

"He flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
He made a virus that would kill off all the swine
His perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
Demands devotion atrocities done in his name..."

Now, see, what if we make this now about President Bush instead of God?
"his perfect kingdom of killing suffering and pain" isn't America supposed to be perfect?
"demands devotion atrocities done in his name" the war is supposed to be for America, but it's really for oil...

~c.havoqk♥ changing the world using Nine Inch Nails and AFI

Heresy Pt. I

I've been listening to The Downward Spiral a lot lately...

Look at track three, "Heresy" and look at the second verse:
"He flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
He made a virus that would kill off all the swine
His perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
Demands devotion atrocities done in his name..."
And line two. "He made a virus that would kill off all the swine..."

Funny, isn't it, that an album released in 1994 could be applicable to 2009's near-pandemic case of Swine Flu, isn't it?

~c.havoqk♥

Saturday, July 25, 2009

I'm Destined To Remain...

Meeeeeeeediiiiiiiicaaaaaaaaateeeeee!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EH-pCYlqEcg

♥cloudyhavoqk

Saturday, July 18, 2009

The Needle Tears a Hole...

GODDAMMIT.
Mouse's rump is balding. ODE TO JOY BOTH OF MY FERRETS MIGHT HAVE A NON-CONTAGIOUS DISEASE THAT REQUIRES SURGERYx
I don't know what to do...

~cloudyhavoqk

Friday, July 17, 2009

I Watch The Stars As They Fall From the Sky...

AUGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...
My first ferret, Bandit (Who I got on 9/29/06) turns three today...

...but she's losing hair on her tail...
which is a symptom of adrenal disease
which requires a surgery
which requires a lot of money...

dammit
~cloudyhavoqk

Thursday, July 16, 2009

HELP ME BECOME SOMEBEODY ELSE!

Creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepyyyyyy....

http://totallylookslike.com/2008/07/25/trent-reznor/

amirite or amirite?

EDIT: oh for the love of all things holy & Havok:
http://www.lolnin.com/?p=111
Yes please.

~cloudyhavoqk

(ps: Trent owns Alan/Snape but Snape still is an awesome character)
(pps: the title of this blog is from Closer but, I assure you, I do NOT want to screw you like an animal. I do not want to screw you at all.)

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

OMFG "sobs*

I just came back from seeing Harry Potter 6. I laughed. I cried. I screamed. I died.
Best movie in the series? Hell yes.


~cloudyhavoqk

Monday, July 13, 2009

It All Keeps Adding Up...I Think I'm Cracking Up!

I have no life.
My life consists of AFI, NIN, RHCP, and Green Day.
Speaking of which, I'm gonna see Green Day live in August! Whoohoo!!!!!!
I really like Billie Joe's current hair.

♥(love) & ♪(music)
~cLoUdY hAvOqK~

Saturday, July 11, 2009

My Voice Just Echoes Off These Walls...

Yo

I'm freaking really obsessed with Echoplex by Nine Inch Nails (as well as the rest of The Slip)
And remixing.
I made a really awesome remix of The Hand That Feeds. It's so awesome that it killed me. (not really)

~ClOuDy HaVoQk~

Thursday, July 9, 2009

The Official Blog of a Basket Case Fall Child Daughter of Dani California and Mr. Self-Destruct At 10:15 On A Saturday Night Who Is Ghost

I hope you get the message from my title.
I'm a HUGENORMOUS fan of
AFI
Nine Inch Nails
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Green Day
The Cure
and I Am Ghost

I'm female, an undisclosed teenage age (14), who live in an undisclosed American desert (AND THAT INCLUDES MEXICO AND CANADA YOU FREAKS!)
I'm in love with Davey Havok, Billie Joe Armstrong, Trent Reznor, and Anthony Kiedis and I have a thing for singers. I sing, too, and scream.

That's all folks

~~~~cLoUdY hAvOqK~~~~~